How Emmy saved my life

So when I first found out that I was pregnant I thought that my life was ruined. I just knew not only would I loose my family, but also everyone who meant anything to me. I also figured that  my plans for the future would be ruined and I would never achieve those goals.
Well it wasn't until after having her that all of these things seemed to come true. I was extremely depressed and felt as though I had no connection to my daughter as well as to the love of my life. I felt like I had to do everything myself and do it perfectly in order to prove to the world that I was a fit mother and was still the same person I had always been. I lost some friends and some of my closest family members.
After 5 plus months of therapy, my therapist who was a godsend helped me realize that I did not have to be  perfect. She informed me that a lot of the horrible things going through my mind and the anxiety was do to having obsessive compulsive disorder and that I am very connected to my daughter. Through the course of the time I spent in therapy I learned that I never lost those family members, it was an exaggeration of events which caused me to believe this way. I also came to the realization that the friends I lost and no longer talk to are not as important to me, they were actually insulting people who were negative influences in my life. I had to think about did I really want these people around my beautiful daughter. I also decided the thing I wanted to do more than anything else was help people. I have always struggled with anxiety and until my daughter came along I had never received the kind of tools I needed to cope with it. I knew there were other people out there like me who needed the same help and this was exactly what I wanted to do with my life. I wanted to give people this kind of help.
My love and I worked through our problems, and I saw how great a father he was which allowed me to look past the things which were not important. He is always there for my and Emmy and I thank God every day for the wonderful man he brought into my life.
If I had never become pregnant, I would have never gotten help with my anxiety, never learned who the important people were and never found the fulfilling career choice I had been searching for. If it wasn't for this amazing little joy who I look at every day and see God's love pouring from her smiling face, I would have been lost in this hectic world. She is proof that God can turn around an unfortunate situation and make it a true blessing.